countdown....(*_*)

dunno dis time...i should be happy...sad...or more...excited....its been a year already since i left dat place....24/11/08...dat day bring me tons of memory...monink...i went shopping wif my sis at SACC MALL....plaza alam sentral....until noon...then...i started packing and moved out all my staff...i still can feel the warm of ieka's when she hug me....n at the time...i can see marble eyes on her...i also want to cry....but my heart say no...i also remember how i hug ebu aka ain...actually im close wif these 2 gurls...dats why..i really adore them...love them so much...still cntct n tke care of each other....n dat day i meet eyka...faiz...azam...at that time...i cant help myself let my tears fall...i really cant...at that time i already call n they dont have any idea..why im doing like dat...only azam...jz still wondering why im leaving unisel so sudden...but that truth i had planned since ages...hmm start from that day...i know...my fate was chnged...will be no more longer in dat course or any sumthing similar to it..hmm frankly...im so sad...very extremely sad...n lonely...but no matter how sad i am..i jz cant simply move there back...the other side might get hurt bcz of me...isnt it...so now im learning accept this n i did this....it jz like tonight...the memories keep playing in my head...like notes of music first love by utada hikaru...huhuh...actually there are tons more i like to write...but time is jelez looking at me...sitting on the stool in the midnight hahah...actually i almost cry...but more willing to cry...more smiling i am...hahaha....i cant be weak...im strong!!! like my mom....haaha...asy jz through ur day wif smiling n strong as u can...aja..aja fighting!! hahaha.... tomolow must go opis...n ges wat...today i donlod more videos...bekalan di hari kebusanan..but seems like i still cant find the day yet...hehehe....oklah gotta go...night...daaa....i luv u guys....